Sunday, October 27, 2013

Is there really a God?

            Is there even a God; for there will most assuredly be critical moments of doubt. In those moments, ask yourself: What came first, Mind or matter? (I'm grateful to Arthur Balfour's Theism and Humanism as the basis for these reflections.) If matter was the absolute bedrock of our existence (with no creator behind it), then everything in our society or anything our hearts value is the outcome of unthinking, irrational chance. Therefore, our values, our emotions, in essence, our entire personalities are all equally insignificant and meaningless. Beauty becomes arbitrary. Morality is utter nonsense. Ethics and human rights are all random and impersonal ideas with utterly the same value—none.

            And this does not mean that Truth is relative such that what is true for you is true for you and what is true for me is true for me. No. If we are simply the product of a fortuitous explosion then there is no such category as Truth. Truth is Indifference and is simply not-real. All ideas have the same weight, nothing…even this one, if there is nothing more foundational than matter. The insane who says he is god is equal to the nun who says she serves God is equal to the child who says she talks with God.
 
Why should humans have inalienable rights if there is no God who says they should, if there is no God, humanity's grounding, who says that all humans are beloved in his eyes? If there is no God, no Creator, then if our political system values me more than the prostitute—because I am educated, with financial assets and a respectable occupation and because the prostitute is broken and disease riddled—then that’s completely acceptable for no moral code can be argued as any better than another...for we are the products of chance!

But if there is a Creator who made each human with affection and tenderness and says we are to love our brother and sister, then I am compelled, and it is my longing!, to weep over the prostitute’s feet, to kiss them, and to love the prostitute (and for the prostitute to love me!); for the prostitute is my brother and my sister and our Creator made us both and loves us equally because the Creator says we are loved equally.

But if there is no Creator, then human rights is untenable. The value of a human being cannot be argued for, unless there is a Creator who says humans have value...because he or she made that human and loves that human.

And if there is no Creator, no Mind who thought up this matter, then the ‘way we do things’ could just have easily been their inverse and no one will be able to say anything different. Immorality could have just as easily been the norm for civilization. Why can’t I kill you, unless there is a Creator who says our life-blood is of infinite value?
 
            If matter came first, the real question is how such order manifested from such a chaotic birth? How has nature organized itself in such magnificent intricacy if our universe is the bastard of an irrational conception? How has a human become what he or she is, given their earth’s improbable beginning? How have we ‘out-evolved’ our home? Why do we use words like home and intuitively understand the deepest groanings associated with that thought? Why do we hear such stories of unspeakable brutality and recoil in horror? If we are the product of total evolution without a Creator, then we should not be appalled at ‘inhumanity.’ What is inhumanity in that sense? Humanity and inhumanity are equally meaningless terms if we truly have an indifferent beginning, for matter has no conscious. It is truly indifferent.

If matter is my indifferent mother then why am I not indifferent?
Why do we care so deeply?

If the reality is that we are not eternal creatures, then why do we live as though we are? If there truly is nothing more than this one, short existence, then how do we explain the world’s historically nagging inability to accept that? We live each moment, even unknowingly, with the belief that our actions, our decisions have purpose and lasting value. That is to live as though we are eternal. But if we are not, why do our instincts betray us?

            CS Lewis wrote, “How could an idiotic universe have produced creatures whose mere dreams are so much stronger, better, subtler than itself?” I can only speak for my soul alone, for that is the only thing in this universe which I understand honestly—if I am honest.

When I say that I find far too much beauty in the way the dew hangs on the grass, the way a river sits in the morning sun, Hugo’s Les Miserables, time spent playing sports and games with my brothers, I mean that I feel too much wonder to believe that all these emotions and thoughts and sensations—the concept of feeling at all—are simply irrational, random, and utterly purposeless. My soul craves purpose. It craves love. If matter came first, then those words and the emotions that stem from them—purpose, love—have no meaning. If everything is impersonal why are we driven by personality?

            But if Mind preceded Matter, then the laws of our universe have an ultimate law, or rather a law-giver. Someone or something wrote gravity into the fabric of the earth. Someone imagined climate, density, mass, DNA and created a brilliant masterpiece of color and variety founded on processes and ingenuity. And most important, someone understands and appreciates beauty, morality, justice, love. All these traits which I strive after so vigorously, which I value so meaningfully, have their origin in the earth’s Maker, in my Maker.

My soul feels restful when it knows that it has purpose, for someone created it to have purpose. Thus I can gaze upon a sunrise and feel such indescribable hope, and know that this is because the One who created the sun was filled with hope. My basis for being is based on that One. He or She is my mother and father and I resemble my Creator. I know love because that One knows love. Nature then is my sister for she was created by that One as well. If Mind in fact created matter, and breathed the breath of life into it, then I can make love passionately, I can sacrifice wholeheartedly, I can speak and think truthfully; for there is Truth behind everything I do or believe, there is a First Mover (though not the philosophical type).

            Again, only speaking from the basis of my soul firmly entrenched within my sticky cultural context, it testifies that my Creator thought this universe up. Mind created imagination and heart. I can feel compassion because my Maker feels compassion. My soul has purpose and we can value that purpose because our Maker wrote purpose into our being.

With an indifferent, random conception, my soul is unexplainable. But when my soul is told it was made in the image of the One who created it, the pieces fit seamlessly and I can breathe.

            This is not to say that I do not believe in evolutionary processes. Science produces ample evidence that creatures are remarkably complex and able to adapt to their environments. Science has unearthed this hidden order in our universe, in organisms and biological functions and there is so much more to unearth. We are intricately organized as a universe. Scientists have discovered the building blocks of our cosmos. The issue is, what is behind those building blocks; is there anything behind them? What is the absolute foundation of these building blocks? I believe there is something behind them: God.

           Again, all I have is faith. Thus, faith is what we are left with. But with such a bloodthirsty history, why indeed is faith even a concept? Why are we entertaining these questions at all? It makes you think.

So on faith, the Great Story of the Bible fits better than anything else. Or rather, I fit within the Great Story better than anywhere else. It feels like home; at least my soul tells me so.

But then my soul whispers, ‘Actually, home is yet to come...’



 

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